zaterdag 16 mei 2009

On the train

On the train

This is good

I take you to poetry night

Stand up on stage unplanned and read quite spontaneously

But I didn't

This was planned

On the train

On the train I describe to you in streaming poetic verse my plans for the night

How we'll go from here , two step amidst lamp-lit willow trees pouring over black canals

Pretend we don't look beautiful in the reflections from the water

On the train

On the train the sun has yet to begin its setting and I've yet to stand up here

And make possibly the greatest mistake of my life

By dropping into this poem anything at all about fucking

On the train

On the train

Buses are overtaking us and school girls arrange jackets and compare iPod playlists

And I'm thinking up the perfect metaphor for your hair when the driver interrupts with "Amstel"

River or beer it's your call.

On the train

On the train

We go to a quiet bar and the scene of misdemeanour

You haven't run off yet in embarassment and I can still look you in the eye

And explain to you all the parts you misunderstood

"Oh," you say in slow, perfect, easy California drawl

"It really was a Hollywood songbook after all"

And melt into my arms

On the train

On the train we've decided it's OK to hold hands

Your head rests lightly on my shoulder wondering how you could possibly reply

You're blown away

On the train

On the train

Your eyes glint black from the half light of the stage

You're still and looking radiant and not squirming with embarassment

You haven't left, which is a sign and I'm wondering if I should freestyle

Curve these words to the situation

But that won't work; you've done enough already, best play it safe.

On the train

On the train I've come up with the following verse:

Tortured early

She wears it like silk

Like that smile

Lightly and devastating

Keeping others at bay

Too precious to rip off

Or have touched by anyone

On the train
Please do not come with this poison

Force me to drink as if it was medicine

You do not know what you serve

Or that I've drunk too much already

That's OK. I'm a fool and I knew it wasn't healthy

You did not know. We both learn.

Now I will stop drinking

Say goodbye

And never see you again.


Living is pain

But you're a dream I'm willing to follow


Love like the trauma I've found it hard to understand

This starlight wishing

As under a candle

Troubles somehow

Still to miss the point


Out of sighted mind

Out of sighted mind/Dreamfill/onspark shower/deliver on/spend woeful/endstorms/toward final/absolute shaken/of vowels and substitutes/vicious name leaning/keeping us from//hellsground in leached on/grape-fuelled/argy armies/of despair/Greek up and lovify/egret posture/swarm arounds/Great lily suckers/liver ground/sister fuckers/hells frustrated envy/tells of grawled/paper nasus/gracious/thorough blending/aunt tie?/ frayed ground and/end type/masquerading hatful/dole chon/Thou/gram


I want to pray for you

Spend good times with you

Learn love with you

Discover what it is with you

In Incomparable union

Divine knowingness

With you


Lady Long time dark endure


Light does guide me

To you to encourage the flow

Like crystal sparkle silver storms

That go between us

In streams

Love time load

Wandering done

In your arms to rest

Heart gilded, joined to mine



There was you

In aftershocks and marriage blows

Crazy streetfight wannabes and hurled abuse

There was you


Lady, let me lead you astray

For a time

Fall and make it feeling

Like the last surrender these tired eyes

Will make.